I am sitting here with a rare feeling in my heart. The truth is that I have no idea what to write today. Normally, I am bursting with ideas. Normally I have too much in my head to put on the page and battle with what to leave out. But not today.

Today I feel flat, tired and as though the wonderful sunshine outside is for somebody else to enjoy. I feel busy in my spirit and not in a good way… ever had a day like that?

Ever had a day when you are not sure why you have woken up feeling out of sorts and as though you are battling something unseen and unexplained?

Not just me then.

On days like this, there is only one response; however I feel, God has not changed. However tired I am, He is unwearied. However feebly I seek Him, He WILL be found. Its who He is.

So I will praise Him!

God, you are Lord of this day. This is the day that YOU have made. So I WILL rejoice and be glad in it. Not because that’s easy, or because I feel like it but because it is true and I need it.
Forgive me for the self-centred nature of my soul; the words that rise up in me that are all about me and my agenda… the feelings of not being ‘important’ or valued… at the end of the day all of them are shorthand for ‘selfish.’ Expose me and forgive me.

Teach me today to take my thoughts captive and not to allow self-cursing to wear me down. Give me a willing spirit to sustain me and restore again to me the joy, the unbridled, nonsensical, wonderful, overcoming, overflowing, sweeping joy, of my salvation.

It is well Oh my soul!

I say again to myself and to you, IT IS WELL. We are loved.