Safe in uncertainty
What is our faith built on?
What happens to our faith when darkness hits us? Or when troubles come?
I have been through enough shadows to learn how to cling to God in darkness. I have been through enough valleys to know how to keep walking, even when everything around me looks bleak, black or blessing-free.
Yesterday I was sitting in the car, singing my head off and truly smiling. You might think this is nothing unusual for me. Those of you who know me well understand that singing is a common part of my day. And yet my singing was from a different place in my spirit yesterday.
Three days ago, we found out that my Mum has liver cancer – and potential cancer elsewhere too. It is amazing how things like that change your priorities and reorganise your mind. It is amazing how your wallpaper doesn’t seem quite so in need of urgent repair and your electric bill seems so much smaller. I have found myself ordering my world and my thoughts very differently in these past few days – of being very clear what I want to take on and what I don’t.
My parents are being incredibly brave and trusting in the circumstances – especially in these pre-test days of not knowing exactly what they they are facing.
But together we are choosing to praise God in all things. We are finding it is possible to trust Him fully in the uncertainty and despite the tears.
When I was singing yesterday I meant EVERY word.
I was listening to the Israel Houghton song:
You hold my world in Your hands
You hold my world in Your hands
I am amazed at Your love
I am amazed that You love me…
My world is safe in Your hands…
I feel so safe, so cared for and so upheld. I know Angels have been charged to watch over us and even though my role as one of the family anchors may be tested and tried in the coming days, I know that with God’s help I will be able to bear all things and be found faithful.
These may be dark days, but I have a very bright God who I know is at work for His glory to be revealed.
I know it will come…
Your Kingdom come
Your will be done
On earth, as it is in heaven.